Bliss

these past few days has been the happiest days since im here in Singapore...having Lionfish with me is awesome...im so grateful when he came for my graduation and hes been cooking everyday ever since...
mind u hes a good cook...even though we just stayed at home n eat n watch movie..its still nice...
it is also a test whether we can stand each other more than 3 days...so far so good...hek hek hek...i know its not gonna be long but im appreciating each and every moment of it...i hope he does as well...

I LOVE U Lionfish...mmmwwaaa...xoxo

P/S: he makes the best crepes ever!

Ever Wonder?

    Ever wonder how people can be so happy on the outside yet so depressed on the inside? I know how it feels and I'm in the zone most of the time. Good thing about flying is you left all the problem and stories at your door step right before you go for flight. On board you are a different person all together. A different persona. The passengers and the crew are not the one to blame if you got problems at home or if you woke up on the wrong side of the bed. So why they have to suffer no?
     I've always felt that i'm never good enough. NEVER! Maybe because since I was little anything I do was expected a failure or just average.I cant understand how families can be so negative. We need them for support and encouragement but instead they only wait for us to fail and clap their hands in the end.
    Even when I dream of big things, they will quickly grab a hold of my both feet and slam me down to the underground and make me feel like all dreams and plans will never work. I now know why I dont plan. I now know why I have trust issues. I now know why its hard for me to be affectionate. I now know why I am what I am..If you are born in a cold atmosphere whereby saying I love you in the morning is strange...you will definitely grow up a COLD BITCH!